Bad Days

Sometimes even the best have a bad day. First off I would like to apologize for not writing! I have been in the process of moving—physically moving! Today is the first real day of me feeling a bit ---- well, overwhelmed with everybody. I feel like I am doing more than I can handle. Maybe, I am doing to much, maybe it makes me stronger and I can do more over time, maybe just maybe, I am crazy and will implode or explode depending on how or who seems to be killing me at that time.


I really thank people for the help. I really appreciate the advice. I want to repay all of you and hope to pay it forward. I hope to get that chance. Today however I just feel like I do not know how to get by. I am writing to all of you to encourage you, to tell you- YOU can do it! In reality you can, you will but remember that you too will have a day like me. You will get that wall, that low that feeling of despair and you too will beat the shit out of yourself to get to the next level.


Sometimes, people tell you that they are doing things for you. Sometimes people tell you that you are being selfish because of the amount of time you are spending, sometimes they are not looking at the full picture, and they do not realize that all you are doing is for them. That what they are doing is not important but what you are is very. I am not saying that you will not need to take a break, or do for others even though you are straight out. I am saying that sometimes people do not see your vision; they can not even if you are doing it for THEM! You need to be patient. I am not good at this, in fact I am horrible! I am though frustrated; the people I need to keep me up seem to be elsewhere, whether body of mind.



Side note: if you are like me, and get irritable when hungry----EAT. When I seem to have a blood sugar low then I worry and get anxious. The world seems to get smaller and my life seems to get worse. So….. The moral is EAT! I need to work on this point also.


Ok. This may not be the most happy go lucky blog post but…. It is the reality and it is the truth. Sometimes, people are just unreasonable, sometimes people just do not get it, and maybe I do not get it. Maybe, whatever it is to get can be got!