Parade! Thanks~

This past weekend we were invited to enter the Murrells Inlet Christmas parade. What a fun time! Thank God for great friends!!! They were a wonderful help and the float that we drove was so cool!!!!! Check it out!!!!

Go to the "Testimonials & Fun page"

https://sites.google.com/site/ndulgecupcakery/

Thank you and we look forward to next year!

Remember the less fortunate... I know it is a tough time for a lot of people- But it could be worse! Thank God for the big and small! God Bless!

When it is hard to see

I guess that I have been pretty busy.... I have not taken the time to write. It may not be anything for you but for me it makes me feel better. I will make this short. I have been doing all I can. I am out so much that I never seem to stop. It seems as if it is one project to another. Many would say this is great!!!! YA, but the problem is that it is not always a paying job. I have done so much charity. I am told that the exposure will help to "BLOW ME UP" (business wise). I hope they are right because all I have is faith. I hope that is enough! I feel like I have done so real good. We were invited to Brookgreen Gardens to display a gingerbread house (a huge honor), check it out, but.... http://www.brookgreen.org

Why do I feel like I am sinking? Oh, man......

To hunt or not?

This past weekend I had a great experience. This experience may be controversial but it was a mind releasing experience! I was invited to go deer hunting! This was something that I had never done before and can not wait to do again.

The night before I started to get ready for the hunt. I was told I needed nothing but..... well that's not me. I did convince myself not to take my day hike backpack but... I did however take a roll of TP (just in case), a leatherman, hand sanitizer, rubber gloves, shooting glasses, water, a snack bar, flashlight, chap stick, cell phone and many layers of clothing.

The clothes were very very very important........ it was COLD and sitting on a small ass chair makes it really really cold!!!!!!

The rest well not so much when you park right there!

Anyways,... it is one of the most peaceful activities. You are sitting is relative solitude, in nature, in the freshest air!!!! I really feel like it was a mind clearing day.

I know that shooting a deer is well..... for some people horrible. Unless you are a vegetarian, than all the meat you eat was running at one point. Furthermore, if I did kill a deer I planned on eating it. I would never hunt for just sport. God did fill the ark for a reason, he did give man the tools needed to survive. Now we have just become accustom to buying it in stores. This is not a debate blog entry. It is to tell you that sometimes new experiences can be wonderful, more than expected.

If you wonder outside the box you may find a world you never thought was around you. I enjoyed hunting. I will go again!

Strive to become more, try more, do more..... FEEL LIFE!!!!! Thank you JUSTIN for my new freedom!

Throw in the chips or the towel?

WOW.... It has been way to long for me to have not written.



Business is going.....Steady,,,,,, and I am OK with steady! Today though is about something greater.

I have a friend, he has probably one of the best workers I have ever seen. I am not just saying this it is true!!!! He puts his all into everything he does. The problem is that the reward for what he does is not equal to the output.

So my question is..... When you put your all into something, when you pour your heart and soul into your goal and you get know place, at that point what do you do quit. Where do you go? Whats next?

If you try, I mean try, to make your job, your life, your friends, your family, better and it all never ever goes beyond the step you took, at what point do you stop?

I would love to help my friend but I am not sure I can!

I would love to know if at that point you are just on the wrong path? Maybe you are like a fish swimming up stream. That stream leads to a bears mouth. That stream is so strong that it is killing you and when you get to the pool at the top, the bear is waiting to eat you!

I know you too maybe are in his position.... I guess we all need to read the Footprints poem and keep the FAITH!!!

Get better with every TRY~

I know that I am not the greatest writer. I know that I am a horrible editor. I think I just think faster than I can type and when I reread I see what I was going to say did not quite type it correctly even though it is not in the writing. I think I try. I really enjoy typing my thoughts. I hope that maybe one of my thoughts can help someone who was searching. I know I find answers to questions in the strangest places, and I know they are in unexpected ones! I keep trying to write because with practice I hope to get better.

Yesterday I was able to help a women by sharing some of what I have learned starting a business. She was so grateful because she did not have the money to hire a consultant and did not know how to begin. I was able to get her started and it was a wonderful feeling. I hope that her and her husband are successful.

My friends are also looking to start a business and I try to aid them all I can. I know they will not regret it if they do it now. I know I should have done it sooner. The days are long, but.....the feeling....the feeling is....unexplainable.

I guess my days are filled with learning experiences. Some things are done correctly- some are not. I try to learn, sometimes I make the mistake again (that really pisses me off) other times I know and am the wiser.

Try, Try,Try...Fall...
Get up.....Fall.....Step.....Step....Fall....Step....Step....Step... and keep on going.......

I tell myself this at every turn I take. Some days are great we sell a bunch, some suck; like having a cupcake and wine tasting on bike weekend next to the roughest bar in Myrtle Beach! Hey.... We learned...

Today I will try something new again.... I may fall, I may fly but I tried!

Good luck! God Bless

Getting the small stuff done

Sometimes we tend to tackle the large projects in life like replacing the roof, fixing the car,and making a great holiday meal. These are all great things to do. These may all be very necessary to get from point A to point B.

This past weekend, my father and I got a big project done. We renovated our upstairs bathroom. This was great! Now that it is done it will help our home value, and it makes us all feel good. However, today is a very stormy and rainy day. Today is a day that we are catching up on the small stuff! Making more flowers for our cupcakes, getting signage and marketing done, cleaning,making boxes, and discussing future projects and events. Looking at the day so far I have noticed that the small stuff is so much larger than the projects that we see as HUGE! The small stuff adds up to a large mountain. I guess this is the same as an argument never resolved, or procrastinating about whatever or anything you just put off or do not face.

I guess we needed the rain, not just because of the drought but because it helps wash away the small stuff!

Good luck and get it done you will feel so great when it is over!

Unexpected

When something unexpected happens it causes a reaction. This reaction may be good or it may be bad. I guess that depends on the unexpected event. I have to admit we had a wonderfully unexpected good week last week. Now, it did not start off all that great, but it did end pretty darn good! I am not saying that we made a whole ton of money, but what we did get was a whole lot of really good people who appreciated our hard work. This was an unexpected, but great feeling!

That was really only the beginning. We have a son who is 10 and looks like he is 6! He is really did I say really tiny! BUT...... he is very I must repeat VERY competitive. Two weeks ago he started football and we were a bit unsure......HE IS TINY!!!! That little sucker can kick some serious ASS..... I mean beat the hell out kids WAY WAY did I say WAY bigger than himself. Unexpected..... HELL YA.... But really cool and really cool to see.

Lastly, we got invited to a friends house and we ALL had a great time. Not that this was unexpected because they are really really.... YES, I am saying it again REALLY great people..... BUT it was UNEXPECTEDLY wonderful..... Both Jennifer and I came home and felt so great to have such a great time. The kids even had a great time, and they behaved.......Unexpectedly that was a bonus......

I hope that you all have some unexpected wonders happen this week.

Reaction

Finally, reaction. I guess I've finally written something that has caused a stir. I've finally gotten some reaction about my posts.

First, I sometimes use fictional situations to make a point,,,,,these are based on situations I see, and I reconfigure them to what is currently being done in my life. However, this is not always the case. Sometimes I do use true to life cases. I do not want to sound bitter or angry. However, I do want to let people know that when you create thought you create change, and change is what I am after.

I feel very fortunate to feel and see change in myself. Sometimes I feel like a light went off. I see the world a bit differently. I think that many people can claim this same feeling. I feel others think they feel and see, but they only do so because they have been told that vision is out there. Yet, others are just in the dark. It is like the Matrix movie or that Jim Carey movie Truman. The world is not what it seems to be, but for a select few it is. I am not claiming to see clearly or be that select few. I am saying that I see a glimmer of light, and everyday I pray for that light to become a bit brighter. I am pretty sure it takes a lifetime to see clear. I am sure that we can all relapse and forget. I think that there is hope for everyone and anyone if they choose to see.

Most will stay in the dark, claim to be what they are not, and maybe that is what is inevitable. Maybe, just maybe I can help one person be the best they can be.

I can think of numerous people who have taught me, and given me lots of inspiration over the years. It may be simple like "not needing excess, why do we need 20 pairs of shoes when we only wear one", or "Shit in one hand and want in the other. Now, see which one fills up first?"..... Truthfully, when you sit back and think, do you really need XYZ? Personally, for me the answer is usually NO! But WANT is another topic all together.

Well, thank you all for your comments and e-mails! Keep them coming.

As for now I am off to the next chapter of the day!

So called experts----HA

Have you ever had an experience with a person or company that makes you say "HUH". Someone who claims to know what they are doing but is less knowledgeable than you! I have encountered that so much lately I am losing faith that people know anything about their profession!

Lets imagine you are a food writer who does not know what is a current and popular product, or you criticize the location in which you work due to the fact it is not your personal desired taste! Let's get this straight. I am not bitter. I am bewildered! I am more than baffled at the fact that someone who is local and educated in the north, finds $15 entrees at local establishments in a vacation mecca WAY to pricey?! First off, vacation destinations tend to be more expensive, that's a given (look at any theme park and their prices!). High dollar areas tend to bring higher dollar items (look at 5th Ave or Rodeo Drive). When you live in these areas inherently the cost of living is higher! Furthermore, $15 dollars is not even an extreme price!. So..... if you write about food you should know your demographic area and be tolerant to it even if you PERSONALLY do not agree. Remember the tourism helps to PAY YOU!

Part one complete! Now, if you write about food, you would think you would follow food. It may be on the internet, TV, magazine or being exposed through your experience. Hence, you may have seen something about a cupcakery! YES, to all you who live under a rock cupcakerys--- THEY SELL CUPCAKES! Now that that 900 level course is over, we can all take a sigh. Hope you all passed that test of common sense. If not then what the fuck! Go back to your cave and keep on sleeping Rip Van Winkle!

So... that's not the only piece of stupidity I have encountered lately. I know.... some of you may insult my intelligence based on my writing or lack of. That's fine.... Think as you will. I need an editor but I do not and will not claim to be a professional writer. I do know I take some really good pictures! AND NO I am not a professional photographer! I do however come across them quite often, they may be taking pictures of my place or dining here. I can tell you that just because you title yourself a professional..... WOW.... you still may not be an artist or even have an eye for your profession. Maybe you have been doing it for a long time....Maybe you should NOW quit and find your real talent, because you SUCK!

OK..... Again I am not bitter..... I am just observing the obvious... I know you all have 100 of your own stories that could be added about whatever, like the so called computer expert that crashed your machine or the mechanic that made the car worse, or whatever.....

I am really amused......Amused about how society make you register, get a degree, get bonded, licensed, tested, retested, CEU's, and even with all that stupid fucks get through the system manage to get promoted, then they proceed to hire even stupider people, and so on and so on...... We all sit back blame someone else and do nothing! HA HA HA.... Guess that's life!

Good luck with all your quests to find an intelligent conversation, co-worker, employee, partner, or whatever.......

I have faith that the quality of people needed to change the world are around, we just need to seek them out and make them the new figures that will really create change!

Change of Direction --->--<---

Sometimes you have a great idea. An idea that you think will lead not only yourself but others down a righteous path that will change the course of the future. I guess I expected that when I blogged about the starting of our business. I hoped it may inspire others or help others not to make the mistakes I did. I was hoping that the people postponing dreams would take a leap. This is the time, today is the day, the economy is going to crap, the weather of the world is closing in (or sure as hell changing for the worse), hate is very real and life as we know is is changing. You may not want to consed to the fact that we are evolving for the better or WORSE. People have a huge amount of good inherently in them, problem is the bad seem to get the exposure the good deserves.

OK. Now that I have said that I am changing my blog direction. I am not going to stop posting the ups and downs, experiences and pitfalls that occur during my business journey but..... I am going to tell what I observe the shit we all see but sometimes never say. I want to vent in a constructive way. I remember when I was in school every professor I had always said "there is no stupid question, just the question not asked". I am going to rephrase that to there is no stupid observation just the one that is not challenged! We let so may people walk all over us. It may be direct such as a confrontation or indirect such as a government piece of bull shit. We all see it everyday and we all have our opinions. We are all entitled to those opinions but what will it hurt to voice them?

I have found out more people than I expected read this than I expected. I love to get feedback because if I help you great, if I piss you off well at least you are thinking!

We all fear change....We all fear the unknown..... Fear hold us all back, it is what makes us step back when we need to step forward. The gauntlet that we call life is the journey God gave us to walk. If you know the end than why step back? If you are a good person than you should not have fear just wings under your feet. I struggle everyday just as you all do. I just know somewhere deep down that it is OK. I do not know where that place is, or why I should listen, I just know!

It is wonderfully relieving to put on paper what you feel, what you need to say. I find that it help me and sometimes others. I hope to become a more proficient writer. I hope to get a bigger following, I hope to inspire you! I hope you inspire me back. Maybe, just maybe we can take the negative world and together make it a bit more positive!

Good luck on your journey and wish me luck on mine!~

The art in yOu~

This post for the past, present, and hopefully the future! WHAT, YOU MAY ASK? well... the fact of the matter is that I have found that I am a lover of the arts... Really art in various forms. I really love photography. Having said this, I was probably a poor artist as a child or that seems like that was what I was told. Now that I am older, I understand that beauty is in the eye of the beholder...SOOOO... if you do not like it "FUCK YOU" I DO!!! Anyways... I have been told lately that I am talented in the realm of taking pictures. This makes me feel good!

This is really not what this post is about. It is about the fact that my daughter is a great....GREAT artist and she is 7. Not just with one form of media but varied forms. I was looking over some artistic pictures that she just took and my heart leaped. I showed her a few things and she not only comprehended them but was able to use them with her own vision to make a great shot. I know we all have talent, some hidden due to the fact we are to busy to explore, some undiscovered, and some that we use everyday. I am going to continue on my journey to find myself and encourage Megan to find hers. Sometimes, the gifts right in front of you are the gifts that are not seen, I hope to encourage her to use her talents.
I am sure she could be the next actress or performer, or artist to strike the world! Hope she remembers me~

In all of our daily activities we see wonder....wonder beyond what we know. I hope everyday I am thankful for that wonder! Find your wonder and put it down,,, it may be paint, paper, print, photos, gardening! Who cares just do it today!

Good LUCK~

Slack....then Move and Shake

OK..... I have been super slack updating the blog!!!! I guess I try not to just post shit so..... sometimes you need to revamp your thoughts and just break! My mission was three times per week to be "blogging" but...... well as you can see it has yet happened. Business is a bit slow hopefully due to the fact that the kids are just starting school. I hope we can kill it during wedding season..... I can not fail, I will not fail! We play different music in the store and I tell you depending on the beats your attitude changes. I know as many of you do that you need more, want more and more important want to move and shake! I am not referring to the beat that the system is laying down but the shake of success that you all feel. It may be as a parent, business owner or just a super productive employee. The shake that moves you to be the best. The best at life. The arrogance that you need in this economy to stomp the others that want a piece of your life, your action. The same stomp that makes you move to the music can propel you to the top of your game. I tell myself I am the best. You need to tell yourself the same. You may be selling on e-bay or trying to get a business started or maybe just living. Step it up. Set that auction HIGH, set your goals HIGHER and make your whole presence HIGHEST!

Even being frustrated makes me want to help others, it still makes me want. It still makes me believe that I was designed to be better than I am now. I strive with faith to be the best. The best parent, husband, employer, person, brother, son, etc... I can. I may not always succeed but..... that's life!@

OK.... Go get UM' maybe you to have been slack but not move and shake!

Kindness

Sometimes you are shocked! Sometimes.... people go WAY WAY WAY out of there way to show you that what you have done is a great thing.

My wife and I make cupcakes, we have yet to cure any illnesses or save the earth from pollution but we do make cupcakes!!...... We have been told they are good.... we have been told "they make my toes curl"...... WOW that's pretty good! But when someone who lives states away calls your local paper and professes that they "need to come do a piece" on us.... Well that's pretty remarkable. I want to thank her.... I want to thank her not for calling the press----yes, that's good to, but for being so flattering and kind. She made both our days. We work very hard, very long and put a lot love into our product.

I guess, I need to be kinder,,,, I try.... After today, I think I am changed! Thank you for that!

I urge all of you to show your appreciation for what others do, it may be the person bagging your grocery's or the doctor taking care or you who knows it may be the toll taker at the toll booth.... everyone want to be acknowledged.... you can make someones day!

JUST TRY it you too may feel enlightened!

Thank you

This is to let people know when good happens----- BE THANKFUL! I am very thankful for the week we have had so far. I want to say "THANK YOU" to everyone who has supported us so far and most of all I want to thank my wife and family for dealing with all the ups and downs that come with business.

No matter what happens I need to be thankful....SO do you... because if you are reading this you should be thankful..... you have a computer, internet access, a place to set your STUFF and probably so so much more. We all neglect the little things. I know I do. I have to step back look and then breath!

I know the road ahead will be tough... I know there will be another bad week, someone who says we suck or people trying to enforce stupid rules.... It will happen but... I hope that the good outweighs the bad.

If there is anyone who needs help.... I will do whatever I can! I know it is very hard sometimes to ask but we all need a bit sometimes! We all want more but.... maybe we should be happy with what we got.

I find myself looking at Facebook and what others do or have an say "WOW"- wish I had that, or wish I was there, or just I wish! I bet others may do that looking at me,,, maybe not..... But you know... its all part of a plan, much bigger than I, or you or a WISH!

I think it will be OK. I think it will all work out fine and I really believe what I wish for now is nothing to what I will receive later! You may wish.... because that gives you drive but remember that you too will receive yours in time.

Bring it on ----

Dream Big

I have to admit that I am a bit flattered about how many people seem to want to start a cupcakery! It seems to be the dream of so many people. I am shocked.

The reason I am writing this is to let you know what you need to know before you start your dream. We seem to think our dreams are easy. That what someone has created is like opening a book and starting to read. That is not always the case.

I want all of you who have a dream to start it. I have to say you need to start in the right place. You need to start on paper, you need to start on Google, you need to start on the place's you do not find fun (like the town hall). Once you have fully done your homework THEN you can start the business. YOU can then potentially think about your dream as a reality.

I have told people to look at the SCORE website for some ideas. I know it is not the fun part but it may be the MOST important. People seem shocked that you need to know demographic data on your target customers or that you need to insure your space, or that you need to get a permit to put a sign on your door. YES, there is a ton of work that needs to be done, most of it is government bull shit, but that's what needs to get done!

I say to all you dreamers that you need to dream, then you need to write, then you need to think and finally you need to act! The action takes the dream to a reality but the thinking makes your dream possible.

I have urged plenty of people to look at my blog for ideas or to get a bit of incite on the work involved but.... who knows if they do. I truly want to help, I want all of you to be successful. The small business may be the country and the worlds only hope.

I believe in anyone with a dream and a drive. No matter what anyone tells you if you want it you can do it! It may sound stupid but I know through faith it is very true. I know all of you at one point or another have overcome some obstacle or task that you did not think you could. I know you wondered how you did it! But deep down I know you know how you did it! It was believing!!!!

Voices in a small town----they carry!

WOW> this is going to be short and sweet. Your voice carries. When you speak you may and can be heard. If you want to fight make sure you are ready to get hit, when you are attacked make sure you do not back down, sometimes the bark of your attacker is all they have.

Make change, cause ripples..... FUCK IT!!!!! Create a wave..... A positive wave. A wave to better yourself, your business, society and most of all mankind.

Do not be afraid...... We all feel fear,,,, we all do not sleep,,,,, we all want more.... even if we have it all...... do not be afraid because it is all out of your hands. It is all Faith....

Stand strong....be strong.... keep moving......

Hopefully the decisions made are the right ones! Well, its not hope it is believing and knowing it is all right,,,, you are all right....

Small town big voice you will make change... good or bad..... OH YA you will... please trust and BELIEVE!

The Hills

No, this is not talking about the TV show about he girls who.... well I am not sure--- never watched the show!

This is about the ups and downs of business. The ups and downs of the internet and the exposure that comes along with it.

Most of us never really see the behind the scenes work involved with business. Any business that is in existence there is someone who put a ton of time, passion, and themselves into it. It is very easy to criticize from the outside but hard to praise with in.

With today's exposure you get some great highs and sometimes a low. Today we received a well not so great review. Now I will have to admit that the reason for the negativity was some of the main reasons that others love us and as for the size of the product welllllll...... it is kind of an industry standard! Yes, it can be altered but..... It feels like a body blow until you step back and realize that the bigger you get the more people will be entitled to their opinion and they will use it. To be honest I think that when you tell the person or company your complaint they can explain the "WHY". In our case that did not happen but.... we all learn. Remember, criticism can create change sometimes confront your dissatisfaction and you can create change! It is a great and powerful tool so use it wisely. If you come to my shop please let me know what you think! Let me know how we can do better or what you LOVE!!!!! PRAISE!!!

I hope and pray that we can make it. Everyday I personally learn so much about life, business, people, technology, human kind and well, life! It is a wonderful hill to climb even when the boulders seem great!

I will keep trekking, I will keep believing in myself and my wife. I will climb and soon if God is willing touch the sky and then stretch for the stars!

We're all walking the hills of life, what we do when we get to them defines us. I hope you all keep moving forward, moving to your dream, to your set of stars

Pro Business----RIGHT!

So..... today,,,,,,, I received a letter from the county of Georgetown South Carolina, that stated I was not allowed to fly an "OPEN" flag. Now you may not understand why, nor do I but,,,,,, after reading the ordinance they stated no flags or banners were allowed. You may not understand my frustration but it is due to the fact that larger more established business right next to me are flying all sorts of flags, American, booze related, you name it. To me that's bullshit.

Let's image that the government was giving stimulus money to promote business and to grow the economy. Let's assume they wanted unemployed people to actually get a job, let's imagine that this was a pro business society that is trying to get out of financial debt.

OH FUCKIN YEA it is!!!! Our tax money, I mean ALL our tax money is going to try to stimulate growth. My wife and I are trying to be proactive citizens and build a business. How can we potentially hire people, pay sales tax, pay the rent, purchase goods, if we can not sell shit! If people do not know where I am they can not come in to BUY, they can not consume, spend, and OH YEA I CAN'T GROW or MAKE MONEY!

I do not understand. I called my councilman, the senator Lindsey Graham and Lt. Gov. Bauer. Pretty much just trying to get the point across that if barriers are in place to deter me from growing, how can the economy of the USA grow. It all starts with you and I. We are America. But........ it seems like big business seems to rule, the deepest pockets seem to make the decisions. The problem with this is that the people who can really make a difference in society are getting cut off at the knees and the country will not grow it will get worse. The biggest only hire so many, they only contribute so much.... they do however line the pockets of the ones who favor there views.

You may have assumed I am pissed and you are right..... By me not selling it affects my family, my life and if I fail it affects all if you!

I hope something comes from all my calls but I do not have that much hope, why.... we live in a fucked up world.... if you don't have a job now and want one,,,,, call your city council and see how many bullshit laws they are enforcing to put people like me at a disadvantage so I can not hire you! Call the president if you can find a number! Good luck to that too....

More to the point we are spending TAX dollars to have someone drive around and enforce a FLAG ordinance, then have them photocopy that ordnance, highlight it and then mail it. Now who just paid for their time, stamp, highlighter, paper, gas, car insurance, salary., etc.... Yea you, both you the working man and the one looking for the job, that you cant get because the business you just applied at can not afford to pay you due to the lack of business. But.... they are complying to the ordnance so sorry you are out of work!!!!

I want to tell all you thinking of starting your dream that this is a reality and will probably happen to you. Probably not this exact thing but..... You know what I mean!

Be STRONG!

Keep the faith but remember that NO one is going to aid you!!!! FIGHT FOR YOUR RIGHTS! ADVOCATE FOR YOURSELF AND YOUR CAUSE!

Pulled and Pushed

So what you all need to know is that when you open a business YOU will be pulled and pushed to buy everything and anything. You know some things you will want them and others will just be useless.

Example. We have been open three weeks and people have already solicited us to change our merchant account. I mean I have not even got the statement yet and they want me to reassess your numbers! WHAT? It seems just crazy.......

Then you have people who can help you, maybe.... such as the chamber of commerce. But it may not always be worth it so you need to evaluate for YOURSELF!I just wanted to wan you that it is going to happen and when it does it is OK to say NO! or I WILL THINK ABOUT IT!

Best wishes! Best of LUCK!

Sunshine through the rain

What a week so far! When you have a slow week followed by a good one it is great. It may be in part to the press we received.



It was wonderful to be recognized a bit for hard work. My feet have stopped hurting and my body is starting to adjust. It keeps getting better. I work harder than ever for less than ever and am in a much better place! I urge you all to follow you dreams due to release that you will feel as you attempt to grow. When you hit that barrier and overcome it.

Facebook my arch enemy has now become a friend and very important part of my life and business. If you are not on it and own a business you are really missing out.

Find us there Ndulge Cupcakery----- FRIEND US..... we really do read and take your suggestions to heart.

Today, I had a young girl come in whom is aspiring to do what we do. She showed me a piece of her work. It was a popcorn cupcake. I have to admit it was great. I hope that she follows her passion and does something in food, she is gifted. I hope she reads my blog and strives to achieve.

I may not be the best writer but I think that I can help. I think I can make a difference, let me rephrase.---- I know I can! I know I will, and so can you!

There is sunshine through the rain, just wait and you too will see.

Suprise

Sometimes when you least expect it you will be surprised with a great gift! Today was one of those days. A bit slow at the shop, just back from a marketing excursion in the pouring rain!!!! I mean pouring rain. When a reporter for a bunch of newspapers came to do an article on us! WOW, what a shocker. I am not one of a shortage of words but!!!! This kind of threw me.

I advice you as she advised me. When you start a business look for the papers to do article on you. They should and may for free. FREE is a great thing! I think you should contact your local papers and see if they have a independent editor that could feature your business. In my business we were lucky and got a wonderful food writer and she took plenty of pictures and such!

The moral. The sun always shines after it rains! Eventually. Remember it is not your time frame it is greater than YOU!

Hitting the bricks

Today was an adventure. I started down the long road of marketing. Started banging doors. I literally went to restaurants and such trying to market my product! I think we have a good idea and it is not overdone in this area so....... I have had a positive reception.

I know this may be very very hard for people! It really is tough to put yourself out to people and have them judge your hard work, but that is the nature of business. I have to say one of the best advertisements that you can use is Facebook. Please look at us:

http://www.facebook.com/find-friends/?expand=pymk&ref=hpb#!/pages/Murrells-Inlet-SC/Ndulge/122506411097392?ref=ts&__a=22&ajaxpipe=1

So far we have had a good bit of business using social networking. Probably more than me marketing on my own. I personally was against the who Facebook idea due to the fact that my wife lives on it but in the end I had to give in due to I was unable to view my own business.

I was told by a very wise business owner (who try's everything) that marketing and marketing costs are huge but super important. Bill, you are very, very right. I am going to venture out to Youtube and others to do what I can on the net. People you know are very resourceful and will find you if they desire. Knowing that you need to be cool enough for them to then venture to see you and spend with you!

You need to get out and try stuff. I am always taking suggestions from people (AND YES YOU TOO) if you have an idea let me know! I want to succeed not that people typically venture into costly business to fail intentionally but.... You get the point.

Needless to say be like water and flow. One idea to the next. Market, MArket and MARket,MARKet,MARKEt, MARKET!!! Then retire! and do good in the world!

PS> TRY TO KEEP THE FAITH!

Insurance!

What a topic! If you are in the health field than you want insurance the way it is now. If you are starting a business, you wonder where is the LOW cost alternative for ME! I have a family and want to protect them but at what cost? Financial or physical? If I do not have it I am foolish and asking for a problem, if I do I am broke and really pissed of because I am trying to be a productive member of society yet, the options for me are very limited!

I could do nothing and the state would gladly pick up the tab! I choose to be something and what do you get a HUGE BILL!

I guess this conversation is more about the state of the government than anything! What has happened to our society! Where are we all going?

On a side note, what a weekend. What a thrill to sell your goods that you worked so hard for! It is amazing! I challenge all of you to feel the rush of doing.......Doing your own thing, being your dream, working until your feet go numb but being thrilled they are!

OK, be positive, be aggressive, be smart and most of all do not let the walls of, government, family, friends, society, towns, politics or whatever get in your way!

The Waiting Game

This key lime treat is waiting- Waiting for you to buy him, eat him, digest him and then shit him out. I guess that's life. We all wait, we get bought we get digested and then eventually shit out. The difference between my cupcake and life is that we will get back up and go through the process again. We will be different (if we learn) and then try again. I struggle everyday to tell myself I need to get over the fear to fail. The fear that it wont work that's life. We try, try and then try again. Today I sit and ponder why that great tasting cupcake is still there on my shelf. I know whom ever decides to consume him will not be disappointed.

I am trying to not only get into the NDULGE Cupcakery rhythm but try to plan for the next endeavor. I guess I can not stop dreaming of the day we will be big. Both on business and life.

My advice is if you feel like you are on a treadmill-- get off. Get OUT--- Move--- the time is now. It does not matter your age or situation, you need to live and we all die when idol. I feel more alive, (very sleepy though).

I finally got Facebook. I was holding out....my wife is on it way way to much! Sooooo I revolted..... but, out of necessity I joined. Since joining I have seen some amazing stories, people from the past that are doing amazing things. I have a friend (have not seen him since high school but.... ) that is a wilderness guide and travels watching wolves! IS that cool or what. Another is a pro skier- find his blog Corey Felton! WOW... what people can do, what paths God chooses us to travel.

Where is mine going? What is my path? Am I on it? Whats in store? I guess I will not know. I am not meant to know now. I hope I am doing his will!

Like the key lime cupcake we wait for our buyer. I suggest you not wait to be bought but to run with the wolves, ski the back county or just follow your dream!

Open

We are finally OPEN! WOW what a ride. I know you are probably thinking what a sorry BLOGGER! I know NO EXCUSES for missing a day but...... If you read a blog post from the last few days you would think I was speaking jibberish! Finally, we are open and we have even had a few customers! It has been nice.

We both are extremely exhausted. Not because of baking but because we have not ironed the kinks out. Everyday I take things back and forth that I do not need of forgot. Efficiency is the best thing to strive for and right now I have not been as efficient as I could be.

I would like to thank all the people who have helped us so far. All the woodworkers, grunt, beach bums and family! I hope that you will all visit and pray!
OK, so is it worth it? I will let you know in a bit. I have to say it is WAY WAY WAAAAAAAYYYYYYYY more expensive than anticipated! I hope to be able to stay afloat. I pray for success and favor. I pray that my path will shine so I may follow.

If you plan to open a food business---- FREE samples to as many people as you can is a great way to go!!!!





I am going to turn a new leaf. I am a visual person and I do not know why I have not been doing more photos in the blog so ----- now I am going to show you even more!

I love photography -- these are my wife's pictures though I was manning the torch!

Wish you all the best--- Look at our current heaven~

Love or NOT?

Sometimes, what you love the most lets you down; it may be a parent, child, spouse, sibling, friend, or whatever. Sometime, when you hold something to tight it disappears, like sand being squeezed in a fist. When you scoop it up you hand is full of sand, but as you squeeze your hand and look at the sand now in your hand you find it much less full, in fact it may even disappear. It may be for the good, maybe that sand was tainted, maybe that sand was to hot, maybe that sand was not sand but glass (yes I know sand can be made into glass) but sometimes that sand is wonderful and now lost. I can say that all that has happened to me in one aspect or another. One of those things will happen to you if it has not happened already. I love! I love so many things and so many people. Sometimes that love you have does not return it in the same manor you love. Like when you love your dog he just loves, but when you love a thing it can break or a person die, or a friend lost. You may love your business, your job, your wife. They can all be lost. They can all be squeezed to tight. They can all be held to loose. Love can fade, grow and become something never expected. Love and business can be similar.



Maybe, treat them the same, maybe not. This is a place you need to explore. A place you need to find for yourself.



Oh ya! Now matter what you know, know one will listen to you until they are ready to hear. Does not matter the topic….. PREPARE YOURSELF!

Tax

This is like a makeup session. This is short and sweet. When you start a business you will need to pay taxes. If you sell something you will need to pay more taxes. If you live in a state with crazy laws then you may need to pay not only federal and state but county and I mean this can be monthly. I recommend at least knowing an accountant, one you can call with questions. I am very fortunate to know a wonderful person who really explains to me (not making me feel stupid) what needs to be done. Find your great person. I guess this is a topic that scares me most anyways. You can not avoid paying taxes, you can not avoid the government. Learn it and then do it. I am still learning but when I find out more I will fill you in.



Another point, get yourself a good of great finance program. I use Quicken for my personal and Quickbooks for the business. I may convert the Quicken to Quickbooks but…. Not right now. I have been using Quicken for years and swear by it. I never would have anything without that program. I have thought so may how to use it and I would defiantly recommend it to everyone personally or for a business.



Ok, overall, learn, learn, learn and keep on learning, never let yourself not know where you stand financially. It may not be a good picture, but it is a picture. A picture that you can alter overtime to make into a great work of art!

Bad Days

Sometimes even the best have a bad day. First off I would like to apologize for not writing! I have been in the process of moving—physically moving! Today is the first real day of me feeling a bit ---- well, overwhelmed with everybody. I feel like I am doing more than I can handle. Maybe, I am doing to much, maybe it makes me stronger and I can do more over time, maybe just maybe, I am crazy and will implode or explode depending on how or who seems to be killing me at that time.


I really thank people for the help. I really appreciate the advice. I want to repay all of you and hope to pay it forward. I hope to get that chance. Today however I just feel like I do not know how to get by. I am writing to all of you to encourage you, to tell you- YOU can do it! In reality you can, you will but remember that you too will have a day like me. You will get that wall, that low that feeling of despair and you too will beat the shit out of yourself to get to the next level.


Sometimes, people tell you that they are doing things for you. Sometimes people tell you that you are being selfish because of the amount of time you are spending, sometimes they are not looking at the full picture, and they do not realize that all you are doing is for them. That what they are doing is not important but what you are is very. I am not saying that you will not need to take a break, or do for others even though you are straight out. I am saying that sometimes people do not see your vision; they can not even if you are doing it for THEM! You need to be patient. I am not good at this, in fact I am horrible! I am though frustrated; the people I need to keep me up seem to be elsewhere, whether body of mind.



Side note: if you are like me, and get irritable when hungry----EAT. When I seem to have a blood sugar low then I worry and get anxious. The world seems to get smaller and my life seems to get worse. So….. The moral is EAT! I need to work on this point also.


Ok. This may not be the most happy go lucky blog post but…. It is the reality and it is the truth. Sometimes, people are just unreasonable, sometimes people just do not get it, and maybe I do not get it. Maybe, whatever it is to get can be got!

Sit back and Think

Sometimes you sit back and think. Think about people you know, family members, people you just met, places you love, places you just found and places you want to be. Lately I have found that I have been amazed. People like my brother who was once my best friend seemed to grow distant only to then return a man that I am very proud of. I have been amazed at who he has become and who and what he wants to be. I now know why he does some of the things I once thought were crazy. I know he understands balance. Now we all have our short comings and I know he has plenty, but overall he seems to overcome them. Someone who people count out seems to come back with a vengeance and fire that impresses me.
I hope he knows how much I appreciate him and what he does for me.


I think about people who are relatively new to my life who are great to talk and hang around with. A gentleman and his wife have a son that play on my sons baseball team. I look forward to the games, not only to see then game but to talk with this great family. I only wish we knew them sooner in our lives before our move. I regret not inviting them over so our children could play and we could hangout.


I think about the people that I did not understand at certain points of my life that I begrudged that I now look to for advice and think WOW I should have opened my eyes.


I want all of the people that may read my thoughts to think about who is around them and what a blessing they can be. So many people have great ideas, advice, thoughts. We as a culture rarely listen, we are to busy with US. Our lives seem more important, our lives seem to stressful and we tend to block our ears. I once was told that you can not tell a five year old who comes home upset from school that the day they did NOT have a stressful day. That they should just be happy to be in school. To that five year old at that exact point in there lives that is stressful, that day was hard for them, they can not relate to you because those are not the shoes they are in. I try to understand and relate to this. One persons problems are not bigger or smaller than yours they are just different.


Starting a business is stressful but that does not mean others problems are less important, or that your kids activities even your faith should be put aside. Now lets be realistic. Sometimes, you need to stop, take time for you, or not do an activity because you need to accomplish something but...... You get my point.


You know...... I have had various comments so far, the writing, you may offend so and so.... etc..... I am not out to offend anyone. I mean anything you do in the public eye will get criticized. You need to grow a think skin and be comfortable with you. If I offend you I am sorry. If I write bad, don't read it. If you want a real answer ask me. I will tell it to you straight.


We have one week before the big move. My son baseball team is number one in the league and championships are here. Last minute preparations are being made on the business. Make sure that you check and recheck your whole life. For example, I have been waiting for a business license to go through and I finally called just to find out that they were waiting for some information. No one told me that they needed it. Surely the state would make a phone call..... NOT...... So, yes, I was able to fix the issue but if I was not proactive I may have lost the window to get the license. Overall, you need to be on your life, your tasks because no one is looking out for you.


I have to say that lately I have been thinking. Thinking so much I could scream. I feel like I think myself into knots. What thinking has done has given me a closer look at me, the people I surround myself with and a closer look at faith and God. What a wonderful gift we all have. THE ABILITY TO THINK!

5th Grade

OK. I have had a few people read this blog and have been told by all "WOW you have good content but you SUCK at writing"! This post is to tell you, number 1! I told you! number 2! I hope that people overlook the grammar and focus on the overall content and number 3 when you think fast, type fast and sometimes try to work on a cell phone keyboard, mistakes can be made in fact they will be. I know I may write like a 5th grader. No offense to any fifth graders reading this... HA HA HA... Well........ most people that write better than I may never try to do what I have done. Furthermore, I am writing to tell and show people real people can and do follow the dreams that they had as a kid. I want you to dream and follow your dreams. If you think you can write better than me, than start your dream. If I can do it than so can you!!!!! Needless to say.... I think if I had an exceptional editor it may be better for you all to read, make me feel less crappy when people point out my errors, but it may take away some of the realness of what I am trying to present to you.



I now have exhausted my justification for bad writing but... You get the point.


Oh, my wife's old boss. I was question on this blog point. Let me clarify. I did meet him once. He was very nice, seemed to be a decent guy. He just should not have been a manager, he could not manage his employees, he had no idea how to oversee his staff, especially the secretary that had no idea how to route a schedule for driving distances (maps have been around along time) and had no idea that turnover of employees not only cost his company TONS of money but makes him look really bad. SO........ when you have good therapists and you burn them out because you can not manage your secondary staff (it is real hard to look occasionally at a therapist route and see that if I am sending two therapists to the same town it is not only very frustrating for therapists but very cost inefficient-mileage and salary) than you are in my opinion a moron.


Now... we all make mistakes in this world. I have made so many I can not even begin. I make them everyday, it may be small, like a bad meal decision or large like moving my family but, I hope I learn from them. I hope you learn from yours. The example of my wife and her boss, he does not learn, so...... I took her and started our own company. I learned that I will not be happy working for someone so I took a leap of faith. FAITH...... FAITH...... FAITH......... Faith that it will all work out. Faith that you overlook my errors and listen to what I have to say. Faith that you can live and become who you want to be. FAITH that God will and wants you to be as great as you know deep down you can be!


You can do it so go get yours!!!!

Steppin'

So. So. So close....... But so so so so far...... Take a step forward and two back is life! I sometimes seem to get ahead just to be set back. I know you too will feel this way and I am just telling you that it is OK. We all feel it at different times. I hope that you get to progress without this, but..... I think it is inevitable. It is so strange the things that you learn and when you learn them. Today before 8am I learned the requirements for rental properties in Massachusetts. WOW.... I now know that security deposits need to go into an account that is owned by the tenant and that the name on the account is the tenants but the account can only be accessed by me. SOOOOO..... they receive the interest if they do not damage the home. They are also responsible for the interest in their taxes. A bit confusing and I hope that I got it right but again, I learned it from the bank today and am trying to implement it as soon as I hopefully get a tenant for our home.


It feels so great to learn! It is wonderful to add one more piece of knowledge to your arsenal.


Total side note.... I mean TOTAL SIDE NOTE ------ Hanes new cotton T-shirts that are tag less and the new collar are wonderful! They are soft and are HIGHLY recommended!


OK.... Back to the BLOG......

Critic's

When you read this entry it may not apply to everyone. I actually hope that no one can relate to it at all. I guess by now you are wondering what is that terrible writer talking about? I am talking about the fact that you will need to prepare yourself for people's criticism, 2 cents, and the fact that they will tell you (not in so many words) you are not doing anything or why are you at the computer so much? Really!!!!!! I just want to take those people and let them really know what I think of their comments!!! Starting a business big or small is very time consuming. You do so many different things. I just want to give the world the two finger salute and let them kiss my ass. I am exhausted and know one seems to relate. The exhaustion is great though because you feel accomplished at the end of the day. You feel like you need to take another step, do another task, grow your empire. You do not whine, you go to that mental wall and bull it over. You take that negative comment, roll it up and prove to the world you are great, your idea is great, and screw what they think. I may seem bitter, I may be a bit. It is not anger it is that I need to remind myself how far I have come and who gives a shit about the rest. I have not mastered this yet but everyday it gets better. Well, a bit better.


Again, I apologize for bad, spelling, grammar and language but this is MY blog and I am trying to present value, content and most of all instill the fact that anyone can be GREAT!

The Plan

This entry is going to be about the plan! The business plan. As I mentioned before, I was asked to help another create her dream on paper. The business plan is one tool that is used to transform an idea into reality. I suggest that you do a few things before starting your plan. Go to Google and research business plans, Youtube is also a great resource for learning. I will give you a great secret! SCORE. Whatever you are thinking it is not that! It is an organization that can help you. It also has some great templates that can be used to guide you. I have a business degree and we needed to do a business plan when I was in college but….. It is very different in REAL life. I started by downloading a business plan and then modified it to fit my personal needs. Now once you have done all this you need to start. Start typing editing and typing. You really just need to get it all down on paper and then modify it to meet your needs. It is OK to change you plan as you go. It is also OK and encouraged to do LOTS of research on your industry, or service. The more you know the better you will be. Do not try to copy another’s plan. That’s not your vision it is theirs. This is not homework, you are not being graded, it is your guide to how you want and need your business to run.

Major problem that people encounter! DO NOT spend your life on the plan. Many people never seem to finish the plan. That’s OK. You should and will never finish your plan. Your plan should evolve as you do. Your plan should never be finished. That being said, do a first, second and maybe even a third draft and then START. Your business is nothing until you put plan to action.

The business plan took me three months to write and get right, or as right as I could before needed to move to the next level.

So far I have been able to go from start to finish with the business in less than 6 months. That includes moving two homes and waiting for kids to get out of school. I think that is pretty good. I am sure I could do it in half the time now. No, I am positive!

Step out

Today I would like to share some important findings. When you start a business there are a lot if bureaucratic bullshit you will need to wade through. For instance, to open in Georgetown County South Carolina you need to first go to the water department. I found this out the hard way. There you will need to fill out paperwork and then wait to receive a certificate stating they can accommodate the water needed for your business. After that you will need to fill out zoning and sign paperwork! There is a lot…. So be patient. You will answer the same questions over and over. Once that is complete you will need a fire inspection and then you may be able to get your electricity. I have to admit I have worked with GREAT people! The problem is when starting out you will find out WHY people hate the government. Paperwork for paperwork, write a check something that was already written for many times previously. For example wouldn’t you think once a building sign was zoned and approved that it would be zoned and approved for as long as that sign existed? If you choose to change the front content maybe that would be cause for a review of content but not a rezoning of the whole thing! I mean do they rezone a billboard every time it is refaced? I highly doubt it. I also want you to understand that that list does not reflect the pain, time, miles driven, headaches, or any other adjective you can think of that may piss you off during the process!!!

During the whole process of doing all this I still have people asking me “what are you doing down there?”, “have you golfed, gone to the beach”. WHAT!!!! I am working my ass off, and when I am not working I am thinking about work. I am dealing with trying to stay positive for my wife’s sake. At least everyday she wants to give up before we have started. I know the feeling but need to block it out, believe in myself and the FAITH I am learning to believe in more and more.

Now, before I go on. I know that 99% of what I say will be interpreted 100% wrong. I mean I had a good childhood, the county of Georgetown has been very helpful at helping me wade through the work, my wife is great, and overall I am happy. I just am a very efficient person. I also speak what is on my mind (tactfully). But I know some readers are going to look and feel bashed. That’s now any part of this blog. I was informed yesterday that there was someone who wanted my advice. Advice how to get to where I am now! That made me feel great, I am honored to aid her in trying to achieve her dreams! People help me and I intend to help humanity.

I guess people do things for all different reasons. Some are valid good hearted reasons some are selfish and yet others are destructive. Look at the world we live in, look at the news broadcasts! Wow, scary. We all can make a difference, if you believe you may.

Alright, now back to work. I am an inpatient person. I want things yesterday, NOW. I detest inefficiency. Unfortunately, I am not in control of everyone! I need to wait. I sometimes wonder if it is my age, generation of makeup that makes me the way I am. Maybe it is all of the above. When you are starting a business you need to be patient. You need to build, think and plan. You wait for others to look over papers or the electric company to put on the power. You wait. I know I am going to have to wait to build, to make the pot of gold, but I still dream. I dream of overnight success. It is OK to dream, want and desire. It is OK to ask God for favor. He does not want you to squander your talents he has given you! The devil is fear, the devil holds you back, when you need to step, walk or run. Do your best and have faith is the right choice.

Live your life, your dream! Go get um!

The Beginning - Ndulge ~ Yourself

Ever want to do something, something that you may or may not be good at, but just need to do? Well, that is my blog. I am not the best writer, I am a horrible speller and probably worse with grammar. I am not writing this for any of you critical types that take pleasure in nitpicking others to make yourselves look better. The red Ferrari and the small penis adage!

This blog is dedicated to all people that desire something that others tell them they can not have, do or should not try! Some people grow up with support. Parents, care takers, guardians and such that tell them they are the BEST! They can do anything, they do no wrong! Well, that’s not me. I have dreamed all my life of running my own business, being independently successful and what have I gotten……. HA HA HA, maybe not said like that but that is defiantly the feeling! I do not give a shit what they would tell you I am telling you that I have a sixth sense for people. That is the aura that they omitted!

OK, well this is not a bashing blog. It is not one trying to get sympathy. It is to help others become as successful as they can be. It is a blog that is meant to help as many people as possible. I vowed that if I became successful that I would help as many others become as successful as they could. I am no where near the success I want to be but a am working everyday to get another step further. I am young, hungry, and possibly intelligent (don’t judge me on my writing abilities).

I will try to outline my life experiences, give advice when I can and document the most adventurous journey for me to date, starting a business!!!!!

Since graduating college I have been restless, not really knowing what to do. I graduated with a business major and IT minor. What a dumb degree. Why!!!! You ask? Because the world is huge and business is everywhere. When you are 21 and are trying to get a job you have no boundaries, the world is so huge it overwhelms and consumes you! A doctor or lawyer goes to their field. Me….. well, I wondered. I got my series 7, 66 and life insurance licenses (stock broker stuff) and did that for a few years. Got a bit bored, moved into the family medical business (not a story for today’s entry) moved to three more medical firms in 2 states (MA and SC) and then decided that even though I loved the medical industry I wanted my own show.

In the middle of all this, I married a southern belle and gained two step-children. My wife also in the medical field was traveling to very bad neighborhoods in Boston and truthfully worked for a complete moron. Can you say IDIOT! Again another story! So she got in a car accident, and that sent me over the edge! At the same time my family decided to sell their business (even though I had moved 900 miles to run it, and verbal insinuations of my takeover were spoken). My wife, Jennifer, and I decided to open a cupcakery!

Now, you must think I am NUTS!!!! Well, so did everyone (remember, the earlier paragraph on SUPPORT!) Ha, not much, I have to admit my father and step-mother seemed to believe in us more than ever, so….. that was nice but…… we had been planning potentially opening a cupcakery for months. I guess ever since I found out my mother was selling the business. I had written a business plan, done some homework but was chicken because the location we looked at needed to be built into a restaurant. That was something I had no idea how to do. One day I received a call that stated an adjacent property was available and had been an ice cream shop! That meant that there had been previously a food permit issued to that location. We decided overnight to go for it.

I have now traveled to South Carolina to start the initial business stuff, (permits, painting, getting our condo prepared for living not vacations). Jennifer is back home with the kids working on recipe combination's, packing and taking care of the kids. When school ends we will both be here. At that point we hope to have our home in MA rented (the money would help). Once both here, we will open and then begin another chapter in our lives.

So now that some of the back story had been told lets begin with the whole reason for the blog. To help another overcome their fear and start their dream. I once was told that you only reach 80% of your dreams. That means if you dream of someday having a million dollars you will only achieve eight hundred thousand! For some that may be great but that was not your goal or your dream. That means you need to dream bigger, you need to reach higher, jump further. Look at our current economy, it is in shambles. People are waiting for jobs! Why wait! Have you never had a dream? If not than I feel bad for you if you have- WHAT are you waiting for! Fear holds us all back. Fears make us stop when we need to move forward, fear is what hinders us all. Trust in yourself, your loved ones, and God. Faith that you will, you can and YOU WILL!

My wife and I have to face our fear everyday! We face the bills, the work, people that think we are nuts. I may be just words on a paper. I may be someone you wish to be or not. But, unlike some people you read about or see on TV, I am you. I feel the fear, I just have learned that I need to trust in me and face the fear. If I do not that I will never achieve my goals. I will never be the person I want to become! I want to be the success, and help others, I know I will be and I need to break the fear cycle so I can become the person I want to be to therefore help other become the person they want to be.

By now you are probably mortified by my writing abilities. It really is that I think way faster than I type and am extremely verbal. I have actually won public speaking awards but…… I have been told suck at writing! Overlook the grammar and focus on the content. That’s the beginning of the story…….. Please come back for more. I promise to share as I go. You will see my life, my ups and downs, the good, bad and the UGLY!